I am always worried. I am worried about everyone, I think I have to solve all the problems that come on my way. If someone from my family does a mistake I feel I could prevent it if I listened or helped. This feeling is very heavy to carry, it is taking a lot of energy, I would say even it is taking years from my life. Now don't get me wrong, I am not being negative here but really I can see on my body the changes that come after I get worried about some issue too much. My last achievement is high fever and a nice bacteria with a very fancy name. You can say now, that bacteria and state of mind have nothing in common but I disagree. As long as we are not in harmony with our soul our body looses a big deal of natural protection system, which in medical terms is called immune system. All the body feels left alone like a kid left in the middle of nowhere, it can cry ask for help but maybe you wont even bother to hear or you can hear but not know how to stop it.
Another side effect of worries is it is taking the space from love, yes pure love, because love is an emotion that needs energy that needs freedom and you just chain it in thoughts in fears. This moment that you spent thinking goes away forever, the moment that could be used to do something crazy or give love. I know we can not always be mistake free but worries have tendency to get bigger and eat up the whole funny thing about our existence. Because it is nothing but a funny experience.
In my next post I will write how I will fight with this feeling.
